I am so frustrated.

I’m only 2/3 of the way through my literature review that is due Friday. I am desperately trying to make all the revisions I want to my philosophy paper that is due in nine hours. I emailed my professor about getting an extension if we are not allowed to rewrite this paper after grading, but SURPRISE, Swatmail isn’t working. AGAIN. I have absolutely had it with the abominable “ITS” and internet services here. I can’t figure out whether or not I have an extension, nor can I email my boss to tell her I can’t come in tomorrow.

I would be less stressed about my lit review, but my parents are coming up to see me tomorrow night, so they’ll be occupying my time until I go off to Pub Night. This sounds trite (the PN part of it anyway), but if I don’t have a destressor in the form of a large social gathering after the week I’ve had, I will most likely go completely insane. Since I am meeting with Melinda, my awesome econ tutor, I won’t have time to work on the paper between my classes, which only leaves the hours of three to six to finish the paper, take a nap, and get a shower.

I AM IN SO OVER MY HEAD!

It’s a little unfair that transfers don’t get any sort of transition period. Coming from community college, I am probably even less prepared than many freshman. As a result, I’ve been focusing on stepping back, taking deep breaths, and realizing that grades here are not everything. Am I going to do as well this semester as I did last year? Absolutely not. Not even close. But that’s okay, because I’m in an adjustment phase.

So even though I’m so intensely frustrated right now, I’m going to end on an upnote. Yes, Swarthmore is ridiculously hard. Yes, it is overwhelming. Yes, there are a lot of times where I’m struggling with course material and I feel like I don’t belong here at all.

But the bottom line is…I do belong here. I feel it when concepts finally click for me, I feel it when I’m discussing politics with my friends…I belong here.

I got in, I passed the swim test, and I will be damned if I’m going to drown now.

Still swimming,
The Transfer Student

That’s right…both of the papers I need to have done before tomorrow are not going well.

However, I’m listening to Chopin and realizing how much I miss piano. I’m definitely taking lessons next year.

That is all,
The Transfer Student

Wow. I just had one hell of a stressful (but fun) few weeks. I’m a little pertrurbed that I wasn’t responsible enough to update this, because now I’m going to have to make this entry either devoid of details or very long. Since it’s nearly 4 am and I’m exhausted, I’ll go with the former.

The week before break was very stressful, with midterms and such. But after that, I attended an epic Pub Nite. Then I got up a few hours later and went with Peaslee to the Harvard debate. We got lost in New Jersey for what felt like an eternity, and about eight hours after we left, finally arrived. It was a lot of fun, I was paired up with Xander and we won three and lost two debates. Friday night was fun, the entire team (those in attendance) went to a Mexican restaurant and walked around Boston, and then Gabe, Charlotte and I went to a few of the lame Harvard parties. They were pretty pathetic, but as Gabe put it, we got just enough alcohol in our systems to not mind our shitty sleeping conditiions.

Saturday was fun as well, except Harvard screwed us out of lunch, and we almost were there too late to go back to Swat. I really wanted to go back so that Arly’s mom could pick us up and take us home at a reasonable hour, and luckily we were able to do so. Sunday Arly and I ventured into the Ville for a fancy Dunkin Donuts brunch, since there were no on-campus food options the weekend of break.

It was really nice to get home, even if I was completely unproductive. I got a tattoo, which was very exciting, albeit painful. I got to see my extended family, and all in all had a really great time. Kayla was even up from DC so I got to see her. I even hung out with the other Harco Swattie, we went to some local Halloween shops and had a lot of fun. The break went by way too quickly though, and although I’m working harder than ever, I’m a little dazed at the transition back to Swat.

I did not do very well on my first midterm, so I have really determined kicked it into high gear for the remainder of term. Total I have spent about fifteen out of class hours studying for that class this week, so I’m definitely on the right track. It was a little bit of a wake up call I think…this is why first years, excuse me, freshmen get pass/fail. But now I can sort of gauge Swat work and what I need to do to be successful in it.

I did take a break from working to celebrate Charlotte’s birthday, she turned twenty! And Ashley of course turned twenty-one. I’m actually missing her and the west coast a lot at the moment, hopefully I can get out there for spring break. And of course, after four solid days of nonstop work, I rewarded myself with the most incredible of pub nights to date. That’s another great thing about a week long break, I partially lost my tolerance for alcohol and had a ridiculously good time, even though the night didn’t end that well. But I was up and at ’em for econ this morning, so all is well that ends well.

Oh, and I went into Philly tonight with a bunch of the boys…it was a lot of fun, and of course a crock of french onion soup, a cheesesteak, and onion rings is always a nice change to Sharples. Halloween is next week, and I am READY. My first real college Halloween! I’m very excited.

Well, those are the updates. The laptop is dying, and so am I, so time for bed.

Sleepily yours,
The Transfer Student

Here I am at my laptop, yet again, pretending that I sat down to blog, rather than study, and I’m actually performing a valuable service to others, rather than shamelessly procrastinating even further. So my last entry involved my unfortunate blood donation (or lack thereof). I felt a little weird for a few days after that, but now I’m fine. I wasn’t able to make it to a couple of classes last week because I was feeling so awful, but my professors were very understanding, which is nice.

After the blood debacle, my week was mainly concentrated on debate, since the Swat Novice Tournament was this weekend. Thursday was spent polishing up cases, and I actually debeated Charlotte and her partner Adam with Rich. Made it off to Pub Nite (which may or may not have been a great decision due to my limited blood supply), and actually ran into one of my debate friends, Arly. He’s also from Harford County, and we decided to carpool to and from October break. (I would link to him, but he’s apparently above Facebook.)

Friday started the Novice Tournament. It kind of sucked because I had to miss the “Dactyl Hunt”, which is this huge deal where a gigantic portion of the campus dresses up and “hunts” monsters. It looked insane, so I’m definitely toying with the idea of attending the madness next year.

But debate went well…it stretched over two days, as college tournaments do. It was nice that it was here, even though there will be very few other events for which I will be willing to wake up at 8 a.m. on a precious Saturday. Rich was my partner, and we ended up coming out with two wins, three losses. It was a little disappointing, because we felt as we got some bullshit calls with one judge, but two novice teams broke to quarterfinals, and one of them won the whole thing!

I skulked over to a Danawell barbecue (courtesy of Rayan, dutiful Hallowell resident and best person ever) after debate, but didn’t eat much. After a trip to Essie Mae’s and a two hour nap with fellow fort enthusiast Greg, I went with Ted, Jeanie, Richard, and Charlotte to Olde Club. The party was fun, but they ran out of drinks way too early in the night. It was probably for the best, since I still had an unusually limited blood supply, but still. But the night improved, because Jess came up around 2 a.m., and we wandered around campus before I finally went to bed.

Sunday was exciting, I got my hair professionally cut and dyed! I haven’t had my hair cut by a professional since my fifteenth birthday, so it was a big deal. I’m really happy with it, and can’t wait to show it off during fall break.

WHICH IS NEXT WEEK. Thank god. The only downside is that I have two midterms tomorrow, for which I have been procrastinating studying…procrastinating for a very, very. So in the last two days I have had one nervous breakdown, an entire pot of coffee, and a cumulative seven hours of sleep in an attempt to really cram. Obviously, as I am blogging, the experiment has been a failure, and my brain has been reduced to a feverish mush rather than a lean, mean, econ/poli. sci. machine.

But tomorrow, regardless of my preparedness, midterms will be OVER. And after a glorious pub night, I will get into a van 7 a.m., head to Harvard for a debate, and on Sunday be back in Maryland.

Back to studying,
The Transfer Student

The Bloodless Entry.

October 1, 2008

It is 4 AM. I am exhausted. I got nothing done that I should have today. This will be the shortest entry of all time,  because it is very important advice that I feel everyone should have.

Make sure you eat a lot more than you think you need to before you give blood. Otherwise you will get to the blood drive in Upper Tarble, go through all the administrative steps, get to the table, get stuck with a needle, and bleed for 15 minutes…before losing consciousness multiple times and feeling like crap for hours afterwards.

So yeah…my day kind of sucked and I’m definitely looking forward to feeling better and debate on Saturday. Not to mention fall break in a week and a half? Hopefully I’ll start feeling better really soon so I can actually be productive and do well on the midterms I have next week.

Yours in being completely drained (literally),
The Transfer Student